Understanding Me

Pick a color:
(When I wrote about my color this is what came out onto the piece of paper). I am green, rich with thought and wisdom. I, green, love to stand out, yet be subtle all in one. I love to soak up stories, places, from a far and up close. I love to surprise with my sometimes multi-interpreted shades. I seek to stand still and see everything there is to see. I, green, see through an outer shell because I stick around and I am constant with other colors. I am warm, embracing, gentle, strong, and bottomless with possibilities.

The Private-Eye Game:
As I looked around my room I saw a person that is; eclectic, colorful, cluttered, unorganized, lover of plants, reader, moderately sociable, interested in people/society, practical, family orientated, friend orientated, eats sweets and veggies/fruits, hoards, has themes, animal lover, minimalist, simple, unique, outdoors and indoors person, likes handmade things, musical, artistic, enjoys tranquility, modern yet natural.

Seeing Yourself as Others See You:
For my pretend family I chose a past teacher, Mr. Clifford, my best friend, Anna, and two fictional characters, Beth from Little Women and Vianne from Chocolat.
My past teacher may see me walking into a room and as my family member see someone who is; loving, interested, interesting, hardworking, challenging, passionate, open, there, wise, resourceful, willing, unique and genuine.
My friend turned family member sees; strong, clear-visioned, honest, willing, fee, loving, goal-orientated, supportive person.
My family member Beth would see a ; caring, interested, self-less, open, honest, clear, giving, available, loving person.
My last family member, Vienna, would see me as; strong, individualistic, passionate, helpful, healthy, goal-driven, independent, beautiful, trusting, and unafraid.

Twenty Things you like to do:

1. Be on a hill/mountain 2. Eat good food 3. Play/sing music 4. Be around animals
5. Think about life 6. Read a good book 7. Talk with mother 8. Talk to close friends
9. Spend quality time with boyfriend 10. Bike in the fall 11. Camp 12. Watch a though provoking film 13. Listen to poetic music 14. Listen to others’ wisdom 15. See a new place 16. Be outside on a warm night 17. Dance 18. Do something special for people I love 19. Surprise others with gifts 20. Change my hairstyle

Your Ideal Environment:
My ideal environment is; living on top of a mountain in a small, intimate house and wake to the sunrise over the mountains every morning. I would have my own room, but share the house with people I love and who are supportive, caring, fun and adventurous people. We would always have deep, spiritual conversations and every day we would challenge each other. Some days would be resting days and we would just eat, sing, and enjoy the time together. Other days we would talk, plan, and get ready for the following days of work. Then we would act on our plans together collaboratively, through this work we would be supportive and helpful. After the working days we would have a time of talking about what we did and cheer each other on for the things we did well and compliment each others uniqueness. The group would work on positive things, such as, helping the environment, animals and/or people in need of assistance. During all of this we would respect each other and share all our resources. There would be individual time and group time. There would be no deadlines, not timelines, no pressure, no right or wrong, but rather we would all be right in our unique ways of doing things.
In this ideal environment I see myself being creative, supportive, loving, free, giving, silly, goal-driven, and open hearted/minded.

Your Ideal Day:
In my ideal day I wake up only when the sun rises, next to my sleeping husband, who would sleep in. I go downstairs for breakfast, fresh fruit already prepared, and then eat it on my porch which overlooks the mountains and ocean. I watch the birds, animals and bugs get ready for the day, during this time I think about my day, my life and whatever else I want to ponder. I sit in a rocking chair; the air is warm and windy. I then go for a quick swim in the warm ocean water, then go back to my small, colorful and unique home to shower. My husband and I go hiking in the mountains, and then stop at a beautiful waterfall to have lunch. We eat vegetables, cheese, bread and red wine. We then go our separate ways for work. At work my colleagues are my best friends, it is a loving atmosphere. We begin our day later, we work at a non-profit (helping people in need) whatever the day calls for us to do, each day is different, but I always get to work closely with my team and the people we are servicing. We work until sunset, which is about 9:00pm there and then we go to a nearby home to have dinner together and talk about our day at work. We eat spicy food, red wine and rich dessert at the end. We talk deep into the night about all sort of things, funny, serious, practical, etc. I then leave either on a bike or walk to my home 15 minutes down the road, feeling safe and accomplished and loved. I meet my husband who is still up working on his computer and then we go to bed.

Fantasy Analysis:
This analysis was very hard, because my ideal day seems to perfect to make any deductions.
Indispensable: What: Satisfying job Where: Intimate, unique home Who: Loving friends, supportive co-workers, supportive husband
Optional: What: Home on the mountains with a balcony Where: By ocean and mountains Who: n/a
Frills: What: Swimming and hiking before work Where: Living somewhere warm and completely safe Who: n/a
When I think about a day with some of the elements deducted it is definitely less of an ideal day, but can still be classified as a good day. There is less of a feeling of fulfillment and joy, yet I am sure there can still be a feeling of accomplishment and love.
Right now I do feel that I have a loving man in my life, loving and supportive friends and a sense of accomplishment.
Presently I am lacking mountains, ocean, hiking and swimming, a relaxing morning, daily time to rewind with friends over dinner and a satisfying job.
Some of the problems that stand between me and my ideal day are; money, experience, training, skills, contacts, location, not married, lack the ideal job, do not always eat healthy, lack confidence, and lack guts to dive into dreams.